I’ve been epileptic since I was a kid and didn’t know until last year that a childhood diagnosis meant it was a diagnosis for life. Now I know this is slightly (okay VERY) off topic in comparison to what I usually discuss on here, but I’ve just needed to get some thoughts off of my chest and out in the open – I’ll try to keep this as witty as usual, because if there’s one thing I’m good at, it’s making a laugh out of a bad situation 😉.
If you don’t already know and you’re new here, I came out of remission from my epilepsy after being seizure free for eight years in May 2017 and am quickly coming up to the anniversary, which means I can get back on the road again and the likelihood of it happening again is diminishing (thank the fucking lord – I miss my car so much and it pains me to pay for the bastard to sit there without being driven until the weekends when Aaron chauffeurs me around like the queen I am).
In the past year I’ve noticed how much this one seizure has impacted my daily thoughts and wanted to share some of the unreasonable ones that I will challenge in my head, because quite frankly they’re hilarious at times.
Subconcious: “Oooh best not have a shower, you might slip, have a seizure and get your head stuck next to the toilet.”
Conscious: “Gaby, you read about a girl fainting and getting her head stuck by the toilet and biting her tongue so she wasn’t allowed to drive for a year – this isn’t going to happen and you’re on the anti-seizure meds now.”
Subconscious: “Pins and needles?! Nah you’re going to lose consciousness and have a seizure again – best not stand up or walk down ANY stairs.”
Conscious: “You sat on your legs at your desk again Gaby, what have we said about doing this?! It’s how you twisted your ankle and fell into your wardrobe at Grandma’s house when you were doing your fashion illustrations for Uni – don’t be a dumb bitch for once?!”
Subconscious: “Belly feels a bit icky, I think you’re going to black out again – that’s what happened last time…”
Conscious: “You ate a very spicy curry that doesn’t bode well for your stomach. Have the curry poo and get on with your life.”
Subconscious: “Headache?! Your brain isn’t ready for this today, you’re definitely having an aura right now.”
Conscious: “You drank most of that bottle of red wine in spritzers last night and have what we call a HANGOVER. You don’t get aura’s.”
Subconcious: “OH NO STAIRS! This is where all of the seizures you recall have happened, you know if you walk down these concrete ones outside of the flat you’re going to have a seizure and don’t hold out hope that the crazy man on the ground floor will save you, he won’t hear you over the weird recordings he has playing to bring the spirits from the afterlife out to talk to him.”
Conscious: “You’ve walked down these stairs hundreds, heck THOUSANDS of times and you’ve been fine, stop being so bloody dramatic.”
And I think I’ll leave it there; some of the more ridiculous thoughts my subconscious has conjured over the last year – I could go on for ages, but I’ve cherry picked the funny ones for you all 😉
Let me know if you’ve had some unreasonable thoughts about any health related issues in the comments, in the mean time I’m going to sit back and relish the fact I’m putting the age of twenty-five behind me tomorrow.