So it’s been quite a few weeks since my last post and this one is going to be a difficult one to write.
As a child, I had epilepsy and at one point was having seizures almost daily. Thankfully, I didn’t have one from the age of 9 to 16, but unfortunately after 8 years, when walking out to my car after work a few weeks ago, I had another seizure.
I won’t go into the whole thing too much as I don’t want to make myself anymore anxious than I already am today, but it’s left me with a pretty crippling anxiety that it will happen again.
Any little thing wrong with me leads my subconscious into thinking that another one is coming and I become extremely anxious and at some points over the last few weeks, I’ve had a panic attack.
I’m returning to work today after 3 weeks of being off and I know it’s going to be extremely tough today, so wanted to get all of this out of my head before I walk out of the door and make my way there.
On a positive note, although I’ve had a difficult time, I travelled to Thailand for 2 weeks and am over the moon to announce that after 9 and a half years, Aaron finally asked me to marry him!
I’m over the moon and cannot wait to marry my best friend in the whole world. He’s been the most amazing support to me with my mental health and I don’t know what I would have done without him over these last few weeks!
Over time I think I’ll be able to share a bit more about how I’ve been feeling and hopefully how I overcame it, but for now I just wanted you all to know that I haven’t forgotten my blog and that I’ll be back soon!
Until next time…